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[hector_rashbaum]

I was weirdly excited to go to work today. DORK. IDK, I have lost my taste for sitting around doing nothing for more than a day or two at a time, and my anxiety's too high to look for another job, so even if I didn't like the job itself going back would've been kind of a relief.

EXCEPT. One of my favorite work people who is kind of a douchebag, in the typical-20-year-old-privileged-white-dude way, started in with some racist bullshit (the sort you hear from lots of people - "they can call me whitey I can't call them n*****, they can have BET I can't have WET, the playing field is totally equal so clearly this is all unfair"). A couple people caught how horrified I looked, tried to steer the subject elsewhere, he kept going. I specifically asked him to change the subject, because I have the privilege of just ignoring racist bullshit, he...did, sort of. Stopped for maybe a minute, then asked me to explain what was so offensive about what he'd said. I said I didn't want to talk about this anymore, he pushed. So against my better judgment I started to explain, and he...argued with everything I said until I just stopped.

AND THEN he spent the rest of the day asking if I hated him, if we were cool, etc. because OBVIOUSLY that is the main concern when you get called out on your racist bullshit, if the white woman still thinks you're a lovable douchebag instead of just a douchebag.

So THAT WAS FUN. Escapism! Meme:

The problem with LJ: We all think we are so close, but really we know nothing about one another. So I want you to ask me something you think you should know about me. Something that should be obvious, but you have no idea about. Ask away.