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Urk. Early. I hate early class days.

I've been on a big album, as opposed to playlist, kick lately. They fit my day well - one for the morning bus ride/wait for class/bus ride back to the dorm, one for the afternoon bus ride/lunch, one or two for computer lab time before my last class. Mmm.

And then I put my whole library on shuffle when I'm back in the dorm.

I'm hungry, but the bacon on my breakfast sandwich is...not good. But I'll eat it, because if I didn't it'd throw off my whole food schedule.

Whee. Routine.

I think I'll shake things up today and take a later bus downtown. CRAZY GO NUTS.

I've decided, mildly arbitratrily, that since I spent so much money on unnecessaries this weekend, it's coming out of my coffee budget. So no buying coffee until I've "paid off" the toys. I haven't figured out how long that is yet exactly. A month or so.

So I got two cups of coffee with breakfast. One will come downtown with me and get me through music appreciation.

Whee, caffeine addiction.

what the hell

Something's wrong and I have absolutely no idea what it is.

I think it's been building for a while, because I've been a lot moodier and quicker to get pissed than usual, but...ugh. Last night I had to do laundry. I got all panicky because there were people in the hallway - I couldn't bring myself to leave the room until it sounded like the hall was clear, and then when I did leave and saw someone walking down the hall I went right back in. I had to force myself to leave the room - after peeking my head out to ensure that the hall was finally empty. And then I panicked again when I walked by the rec room and there were people in there.

That came out of left field. I - that's never ever happened. Today I've been mildly panicky, but nothing huge until a few minutes ago, when I just got upset and started sobbing out of nowhere.

This...what the fuck.

Getting on the bus this morning didn't bother me, but right now the idea of having to go to the bus stop with other people and get on a maybe-crowded bus and go to the crowded dining hall and then to class is freaking me out.

If I had any idea where this had come from, it might help. But..no. And the best I can think of as a warning sign is since I got back here I've been getting angry about really insignificant things. But...ugh. I'm confused and kind of scared right now.

I'm gonna skip lunch and go back to bed and hopefully I'll feel better when it's time to go to class.

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BigDaddyPompous: mm. Phil Collins.
Vendromeda: I want Phil to cover Phils in the air tonight
BigDaddyPompous: I think he should do a whole album of Phil Collins covers.
BigDaddyPompous: he could call it Phil's Collins
Vendromeda: OH MY GOD
Vendromeda: he MUST DO THIS
BigDaddyPompous: let's call him!
Vendromeda: you are the smartest woman alive. we HAVE to contact him
BigDaddyPompous: hahaha
Vendromeda: you must post this on lj