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I'm sick todaaaaay :( I went home sick yesterday around 4 (my shift ends at 5, I thought I could stick it out till the end of the day but that would not have been a good idea), and I thought it might've just been the heat (it was definitely over 100 degrees in the warehouse, and someone kept turning the fans off so it was 100 degrees of stagnant air), because I felt better after an hour at home in my air-conditioned room...but I woke up this morning feeling like Hell.
I really don't know how long I can tolerate this job for. It was getting steadily less intolerable, but yesterday was just...bad. Like, I spent half the day on the brink of why-is-this-my-life tears bad. And I wanna stick it out because I need the money, but...it's too much, I think, just...too much bad at once. I could do the heat on its own, I could do the "HOW DARE YOU SIT DOWN WHEN YOU HAVE NOTHING TO DO" on its own, I could do the tedium on its own, I could do coming home every day hurting in at least 100 different places on its own. I could maybe even do some combination of all of those. But I can't handle all of it.
Maybe the sick/mental health day will help. I'm using it to write Kevin/Zefron/Vanessa Hudgens porn. JUST WHAT THE DOCTOR ORDERED.
I really don't know how long I can tolerate this job for. It was getting steadily less intolerable, but yesterday was just...bad. Like, I spent half the day on the brink of why-is-this-my-life tears bad. And I wanna stick it out because I need the money, but...it's too much, I think, just...too much bad at once. I could do the heat on its own, I could do the "HOW DARE YOU SIT DOWN WHEN YOU HAVE NOTHING TO DO" on its own, I could do the tedium on its own, I could do coming home every day hurting in at least 100 different places on its own. I could maybe even do some combination of all of those. But I can't handle all of it.
Maybe the sick/mental health day will help. I'm using it to write Kevin/Zefron/Vanessa Hudgens porn. JUST WHAT THE DOCTOR ORDERED.
