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So.

I went to my aunt's tonight and had a significant amount of wine. And I decided to e-mail Chrissy and tell her I'm crazy infatuated with her because telling her...I don't know. I'm sure I had a good reason for actually telling her, but it was also probably that kind of reason that doesn't make any sense without alcohol.

She e-mailed me back. Very short e-mail, they're having thunderstorms down there and her power keeps going out.

But.

She feels the same.

So...yeah. I'm not sure how I feel at the moment because the rational part of me knows that it doesn't matter if we both feel the same, it wouldn't matter if she wrote me back "thank God you said that, I've wanted to bang you from the first time I talked to you" because all she really can be to me right now is lines of text and some pictures. And then the irrational part of me is all "whee yay she likes me".

So I'm confused and messed up. But when she gets online we'll talk. And figure things out as best we can. And...yeah.

Now I think I should probably go to bed before I start getting all paranoid and weird.

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I slept like shit last night/today.

Getting to sleep takes half an hour.

I sleep fine for an hour.

For another hour I drift in and out of slee and this weird mindless semi-awakeness.

Give up on getting back to real sleep, get up.

Two hours and I'm too tired to keep my eyes open, so back to bed.

And this has been since 2:30 am.

Ugh.

I'm too tired, too hungry (but we've gone through all the insta-foods and the kitchen was too messy to cook anything all day), and - oddly enough - too cold. Which I assume is a product of the tiredness and hunger, 'cause it's way too hot to be too cold.

I was gonna chalk the not sleeping up to a recent increase in stress. But I got that worked out today - or as worked out as it's gonna get, which isn't really enough but it's not like there's anything either of us can do about it - so after that I should've slept okay.

But - eh. I'll figure it out for myself.

I'm too happy to be this whiny.