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Hydrocodone rules. If anyone in the family actually wants it from me they'll be prying it from my cold dead stoned hands.

I have re-tried on all the Torrid clothes. The vest thing is too small...but it looks omg hot with the necklaces I got at Lane Bryant tonight. And it doesn't look THAT bad - it's obvious in the back, where it has to stretch over my big fat ass, but if I wear a jacket over it it looks omg hot. ESPECIALLY with the necklaces. And the skirt is cute, just not with the vest, even though I bought it to wear with the vest. And the boots look OMG HOT with jeans, just not with the skirt. So I just need to reconsider the outfit.

My daddy ordered me two books tonight, The Zen of CSS: Visual Enlightenment for the Web (Voices that Matter) and Bulletproof Web Design: Improving Flexibility and Protecting Against Worst-Case Scenarios With XHTML and CSS.

Fascinating, eh? YES, if you are a total fucking web design nerd like me. I need to read a philosophy of design book for web design...those books cost $40 each at Barnes and Noble, but since I suggested Amazon where they're $25 each he's ordering me both instead of making me choose. And he got two-day delivery so I'll have them for the ride back to P-funk. And my Amazon order, with The Dirt and the dvds, should be waiting for me at school. Yay new things.

Snagged from [livejournal.com profile] silicondreams because I am HELLA bored.

My 2006 in Fic
Stories I Wrote
Bon Jovi:
Every Night
Tomorrow Isn't Tonight
Make It Interesting
A Little Talk
Stand Up
Musing
Last Cigarette
Fighting Words
Charades
Finale
Morning After
Pushover
Look At Me
Don't Stop Loving Me Now
Groupie
Shut Up And Kiss Me
I Dream Of...
Wanted
Saved
On A Full Moon
Poodle
Don't Ask
Oh Christ
What If
Hey, Neighbor
Midnight Show
Love Song
Excuses, Excuses
Milkshake
Man of Steel
Ready, Aim, Fire
Conscience (WIP)


Def Leppard:
Haunted

Crossovers:
Rhythm
User Friendly
Tangled (WIP)
Refuge
Knowledge
Phone Tag
Cheated
Mourning
The Dreaded Man-Cold
Rescuer (WIP)
Challenge
Let It Snow
Need


Overall impression: That's quite a bit of fic, considering in February I said I probably wouldn't ever write. I've almost doubled the amount of Jovi fic on RockFic, I'm all but two of the Top 25 Jovi stories, and I even branched out into different bands. I wrote an entire story with no Jovi in it, and I just signed up to read the Jovi fic, with no intention of even READING other bands. And I think, considering I've been writing for less than a year, I've done a fairly good job finding and developing a unique voice that I'm happy with - even proud of, more often than not.

My favourite story this year: I love Phone Tag - it was a dream to write, and I love how it ended up. Refuge I love for the response it got, because the entire time I wrote it I was beating myself over the head with "don't make him a martyr or an angel or anything but a guy don't be melodramatic don't be an idiot just a dude not anything but a guy" and it looks like I managed that. I love how Haunted proved to me that I didn't need my Jovi crutches and how it totally morphed into something different than I saw in my head at the beginning. Every Night, for being my first. Hey Neighbor for being my first serious OC and showing me I could do it. And Tangled means something very special to me.

My best story this year: Best as a broad example of what I can do? Phone Tag. Best as in...best? I don't know. I'm partial to Rescuer, it's a shame the bunny appears to have vanished. Mourning and On A Full Moon I have a tendency to, when I'm rereading, come to a line and just stop and wonder who wrote that because it's far too good for me.

Story most underappreciated by the universe, in my opinion: I...don't know. Mourning I love and wish more people loved like I do, but I get why it's not everyone's cup of tea. Really, I never expected anyone to read or review anything I wrote, so it's hard to not meet my expectations.

Most beloved by readers: Dreaded Man-Cold is most reviewed; Let It Snow, Knowledge, and Groupie are tied for the most recs. So...those.

Most fun story: To write? Dreaded Man-Cold. Wrote it in Management class and couldn't stop giggling. Charades and Make It Interesting had me giggling like an idiot, too.

Most sexy story: What If, I Dream Of..., and Need. Although, oddly enough, when I was writing it, Need didn't do a thing for me. It was hot enough on the reread once it was posted...but when I posted it, I was worried I'd let the erotic aspects of it suffer for the emotional, because I just wasn't feeling it.

Story with the single sexiest moment: The image in What If of Dr. David, all ponytail and slacks and button-down, sucking the Hell out of sweatydirtyrooferTico's dick never fails to kill me so so so dead.

"Holy crap, that's wrong, even for you" story: I don't think I wrote anything particularly fucked up this year. Ready, Aim, Fire is fairly fucked up in a soap opera melodrama kind of way. I guess writing JBJ as getting totally fucking hot over Bruce treating him like a literal whore in Need is kind of fucked up. And Haunted, Viv being all omgevil is pretty fucked up, too.

Story that shifted my own perceptions of the characters: Man of Steel, for both Jon and Richie. Ready, Aim, Fire, too, really. Those two are full of surprises for me. And an as-yet-untitled massive epic Jon/Joe/Sav/Richie fic is changing my opinion of Richie even further.

Hardest story to write: Don't Stop Loving Me Now. I had three scenes that HAD to be written, and the rest just...ugh. It was like pulling teeth except I didn't get any Hydrocodone after. And Morning After sat in my WIP folder for a month without a beginning or ending.

Easiest story to write: Dreaded Man-Cold, Haunted, On A Full Moon, Groupie, Milkshake, Let It Snow, Every Night, and Mourning all wrote themselves while I drooled blankly off into space.

Biggest Disappointment: Tangled.

Biggest Surprise: Any one of the crossovers. Never intended to write anything but Jovi, never WANTED to write anything but Jovi, so the first time Nicko came bounding in I was totally taken aback.

Most Unintentionally Telling Story: Any of the Tico/Nicko fics that are brimming with frustration - Let it Snow and Phone Tag, those two. That's all very, very real frustration for me. I'm not sure that's unintentional, though - Tico/Nicko bunnies always pop up when I'm feeling particularly frustrated with distance and limitations and such, because they're the best vehicle for that.

Final thoughts: I'm still surprised every time I finish a fic, still surprised when people read it, when they like it, when they review or rec or fave it. I still can't believe I'm published. It's been a big year for self-discovery, I guess. And if I hadn't rediscovered my love of writing through RockFic, I wouldn't be switching my major and my life goals to something far more suited to my many talents. Bring on 2007 :)

Stoned as I am, there might be gibberish in there. I'll go through and fix it when my lovely lovely Hydrocodone/caffeine/sugar/lesbian buzz has worn off, although I hope it never does.

Date: 2006-12-30 04:45 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] silicondreams.livejournal.com
OMG I NEED THOSE BOOKS. No really. They would do just great for my XHTML/PHP exam in a month. *sigh*

Anyway. Your list makes me cringe. So MANY I haven't read. I'm soso sorry. I will catch up. I really like how you write. I may not be good at showing it (ask anybody - I am not) but I'm very happy you turned the "not writing anymore ever" option down. You have talent.

so the first time Nicko came bounding in I was totally taken aback.

Yes, he has the tendency to do that, doesn't he? Good Old Patenthesis-face. *pets him*

Date: 2006-12-30 04:46 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] silicondreams.livejournal.com
Also - fucking NEAT, there is somebody with my username. XD

Date: 2006-12-30 05:08 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hector-rashbaum.livejournal.com
I will never again post under the influence.

I've edited this entry eight times - the seventh was to fix your username :D

Date: 2006-12-30 05:10 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] silicondreams.livejournal.com
If it's of any consolation, I edited my version at least five times - and I'm not stoned nor drunk (alas)....*knocks on head* hee

Date: 2006-12-30 05:16 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hector-rashbaum.livejournal.com
Yay! At least I have an excuse. Nyah nyah.

Date: 2006-12-30 05:07 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hector-rashbaum.livejournal.com
I'll let you know if they're as good as I'm anticipating - I read way too fast, so I'll be done with them by Wednesday.

Remind me and I'll link you to a pdf my web design professor posted for us of one of the recommended books - it's a little dated, and full of delicious typos because it's pre-press, but it's pretty good as a quick read.

And I bet it didn't make you cringe any more than looking at your list did. Not even so much I haven't read - sooo much I haven't reviewed. I need to just sit down for like half an hour and go through and catch up on reviewing and reading your stuff.

And thanks :) (drugs are awesome. I can accept a compliment without blushing and excuses when I'm stoned, yay!)

And God, Nicko. I was just fucking surfing my Bon Jovi message board for stuff about Tico and I saw Nicko's name and BAM bunny. And then BAM BAM BAM more bunnies and suddenly I can't imagin ever NOT writing Nicko.

Date: 2006-12-30 05:18 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] silicondreams.livejournal.com
Remind me and I'll link you to a pdf my web design professor posted for us of one of the recommended books

That sounds AWESOME, thanks! Would you do that? (When you're not stoned/in pain, of course - take care! (and thank god you don't smoke, I went into a serious nicotine withdrawal in the days I couldn't smoke on the surgery scar)) You're a total doll.

I'm not stoned though so I'll blush. No need to review, really. :*

(And YES he does that. I remember the first time I decided to deal with him - been writing in English for not even six months and bastard kept wanting me to do his accent by the letter. Colossal pain in the ARSE.)

Date: 2006-12-30 05:34 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hector-rashbaum.livejournal.com
YES, there is a need to review. I just have a hard time reviewing your stuff because I tend to get knocked speechless either giggling or just guh-ing in general at how awesome it is.

(blush! mwahahahahahaha BLUUUUUSH)

and here she be:

The Art and Science of Web Design (http://www.google.com/url?sa=t&ct=res&cd=4&url=http%3A%2F%2Fmirror.randomfoo.net%2Fbooks%2Fartsci%2Fveen-artsci.pdf&ei=Do5sRYz0L4bYwALxhfzpCg&usg=__5je_mmdpAe772J0JBP2wl5ZsWMU=&sig2=hRtZmPhbn12_QdMet1FYaA)Web Design Garage by Marc Campbell. It's meant as a CSS reference, but it's written well enough I ended up reading it cover-to-cover over a week or so on my daily commute.

And, because I have it kicking around, here's the list of books my professor recommended, so you can poke through and see if anything looks intriguing (like I said, I'm a design nerd, so I think I spent like two hours total narrowing this list down to two books, and I'll probably end up getting them all at some point):

Bulletproof Web Design (http://www.amazon.com/Bulletproof-Web-Design-flexibility-protecting/dp/0321346939/sr=1-1/qid=1164742137/ref=pd_bbs_sr_1/102-8909133-8330529?ie=UTF8&s=books), by Dan Cederholm
Don't Make Me Think (http://www.amazon.com/Dont-Make-Me-Think-Usability/dp/0321344758/sr=1-1/qid=1164742110/ref=pd_bbs_sr_1/102-8909133-8330529?ie=UTF8&s=books), by Steve Krug
User-Centered Web Development (http://www.amazon.com/User-Centered-Web-Development-Jonathan-Lazar/dp/0763714313/sr=1-1/qid=1164742065/ref=sr_1_1/102-8909133-8330529?ie=UTF8&s=books), by Jonathan Lazar
Designing with Web Standards (http://www.amazon.com/Designing-Web-Standards-2nd-VOICES/dp/0321385551/sr=1-1/qid=1164742038/ref=pd_bbs_sr_1/102-8909133-8330529?ie=UTF8&s=books), by Jeffrey Zeldman
Web Redesign: Workflow that Works (http://www.amazon.com/Web-ReDesign-Workflow-that-Works/dp/0735710627/sr=8-1/qid=1164741968/ref=sr_1_1/102-8909133-8330529?ie=UTF8&s=books), by Kelly Goto
The Zen of CSS Design: Visual Enlightenment for the Web (http://www.amazon.com/Zen-CSS-Design-Visual-Enlightenment/dp/0321303474/ref=pd_sim_b_4/102-8909133-8330529), by Dave Shea
CSS Mastery: Advanced Web Standards Solutions (http://www.amazon.com/CSS-Mastery-Advanced-Standards-Solutions/dp/1590596145/ref=pd_sim_b_4/102-8909133-8330529), by Andy Budd

Date: 2006-12-30 05:37 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hector-rashbaum.livejournal.com
I fucked up the links here. Awesome.

Here (http://www.google.com/url?sa=t&ct=res&cd=4&url=http%3A%2F%2Fmirror.randomfoo.net%2Fbooks%2Fartsci%2Fveen-artsci.pdf&ei=Do5sRYz0L4bYwALxhfzpCg&usg=__5je_mmdpAe772J0JBP2wl5ZsWMU=&sig2=hRtZmPhbn12_QdMet1FYaA) is the pdf of The Art and Science of Web Design by Jeff Veen. It isn't great, it's dated and typoed to Hell, but it's a quick read and it's colorful.

And here (http://www.amazon.com/Web-Design-Garage-Marc-Campbell/dp/0131481991/sr=8-1/qid=1167456985/ref=pd_bbs_sr_1/103-4649831-0769463?ie=UTF8&s=books) is another book I highly recommend, Marc Campbell's Web Design Garage.

There. I think that fixes the link issue.

Date: 2006-12-30 05:46 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] bella-cheval.livejournal.com
Hydrocodone is teh shizzle, as are Lortabs.

Date: 2006-12-30 05:49 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hector-rashbaum.livejournal.com
Never had Lortabs. But Hydrocodone has replaced Percocet as my favorite owie drug.

Date: 2006-12-30 05:44 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] silicondreams.livejournal.com
Ok, that looks so neat I almost want to start studying right now. Dammit to hell, you just rekindled my webdesign flame! On my last webdesign exam even! Curses! *puts the other books safe in memories*

You are awesome and I'm totally dedicating it to you if I get a good grade. :D Thanks!

Now I'll go blush. Shaddap. :P (but thanks for that too.)

Date: 2006-12-30 05:48 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hector-rashbaum.livejournal.com
Good. I'm sick of being the only design nerd I know. My dad nerds with me in spirit, but he's a newspaper layout guy, not a web guy.

Yay, I'll finally have something to do with a good grade!

And ye shall blush, for I command it so.

*goes blush*

Date: 2006-12-30 05:55 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] silicondreams.livejournal.com
Oh, I am! I just tend to be a bit more graphics geek because admittedly I fuck graphics up a little less than design (and I fuck design up MUCH less than basic programming, at which I can honestly say I suck salty donkey balls. Alas.)

Re: *goes blush*

Date: 2006-12-30 05:59 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hector-rashbaum.livejournal.com
I tend to be more of a design person than a graphics person. And programming...eugh. I get it fine when someone's explaining it to me, I'm logical enough to see how putting in A and B gets the computer to go C!...but when it comes to actually doing it? Noooooo. Everything gets lost and jumbly and computer goes MORON instead of C.

Re: *goes blush*

Date: 2006-12-30 06:06 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] silicondreams.livejournal.com
LOL

I hereby state that I will invent a programming language by the name of MORON++ and it shall be easy and understandable to everybody. It shall revolutionize the world as we know it. Or allow me to achieve world domination, I have yet to decide.

(Speaking of which, my dream since last night is to learn to program in Shakespeare (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shakespeare_%28programming_language%29). It's so very spiffy and literary and utterly useless!

Re: *goes blush*

Date: 2006-12-30 06:10 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hector-rashbaum.livejournal.com
I will be an avid supporter of your MORON++.

And omg. That Shakespeare looks...amazing. Totally pointless and overblown and pompous and AMAZING.

Re: *goes blush*

Date: 2006-12-30 06:13 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] silicondreams.livejournal.com
and yet...makes more sense than Java to me. *KER-sigh*

(And - I love the holidays! I'm still here doing absolutely shit nothing but being silly on LJ with you and it's 7am. Yay holidays. I'm so gonna regret this in a week!)

Re: *goes blush*

Date: 2006-12-30 06:18 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hector-rashbaum.livejournal.com
Java makes sense to me when I have an hour to sit down and puzzle things out. And even then, it's a toss-up whether I'll figure it out.

I don't always have an hour. And I'd bet good money I've forgotten everything I learned in Java class so none of this even applies because I'd have to go back to the beginning and relearn everything.

I like Java, because it's logical and mildly straightforward, I just have issues with all the memorization and what to type where and why. Someday I'll pick up a Java for Dummies or something along that line and teach it to myself so it sticks.

And it's oneish here. I'm dead by 7 am...more power to you :D

who's ass is that? Kai's?

Re: *goes blush*

Date: 2006-12-30 06:28 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] silicondreams.livejournal.com
I had great memorization issues too - because that bitch of my teacher made us program in Textpad. It is greatly helped by neat little programs like NetBeans that actually don't assume you know everything ever. I have been dipping my toes (from great distance) in Flash lately - and having a vague Java knowledge helps in it, if only for the fact it makes you go "this looks like java...BUT INTUITIVE! BWHAHAH I RULE" Must do more flash.

I tend to be startlingly awake in the night - since I was a babyLia apparently. Motty says she just put me in the cradle and I...just spent hours talking to myself and watching the pretty bees before falling asleep...

(And indeed it is, the best ass of the metal world - of which I have realized I have two icons of and three more icons implying people putting their junk up in it, which makes me wonder about my sanity sometimes.)

Re: *goes blush*

Date: 2006-12-30 06:35 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hector-rashbaum.livejournal.com
I can memorize if it's taught right. I can do tons of CSS stuff from memory because my web professor KNOWS how to teach. My Java professor had his computer hooked up to a projector showing on a screen in the front of the room, so it was

Prof: *type type type*
Class: *copy copy copy*

No LEARNING there. Just mimicking. I came away with a bunch of programs all written...and know knowledge or understanding of why or how they worked. Urk.

I was gonna take a flash class this tri and ended up dropping it when I retooled my schedule. Next tri, maybe. I like flash - but people get too dependent on it. I overheard a guy in my advanced web class talking about how the class was bullshit and if he needed to make a site he'd just do the whole thing in flash.

NO. Bad. *thwaps*

My sister's always been like that. My sleep schedule is just very sensitive to change - if I stay up late one night, I'm staying up late every night until I have the willpower to go insomniac for a day to get back on track.

It's not your sanity's fault he's so fuckable. I tried to work up a Kai/JBJ bunny once just because omg those asses in the same place...but I couldn't form a plausible connection (problem 1)...and those two together wouldn't fuck, they'd sit around and pout about how they couldn't decide who got to bottom (problem 2)

Re: *goes blush*

Date: 2006-12-30 06:52 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] silicondreams.livejournal.com
Oh god I hate those classes. I had the same problem with the CSS class. It was right nightmare: apart from the fact it was Thursday, Friday and SATURDAY 8am-10am, that really doesn't make for awake and receptive minds, she just was unable to explain what a thing did something AND she had disabled the internet connection on the whole room so you couldn't even take a break when you felt your eyes drop. So you would sit in the back and see people in various states of slumping mindlessly playing Minesweep as she talked. Ugh. And we're supposed to be the best public Media/Computer Science faculty of the contry. Indeed...

and those two together wouldn't fuck, they'd sit around and pout about how they couldn't decide who got to bottom

*glares at own KaiMuse* SEE how other muses behave? Dammit as soon as I mention the world fucking you're naked, on your back and wearing your knees as earrings. Whore!

(PS: do you happen to use your MSN contact? Cause I think the new Yahoo messanger has this nifty feature of being able to add MSN people (supposing that it works that is) and I just noticed we spent two hours blabbing in your lj...)

Re: *goes blush*

Date: 2006-12-30 06:58 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hector-rashbaum.livejournal.com
ohgod, 8-10? Bleeeeargh. Thanks to my job I can't take any classes before 11:30 am. Heck yes.

Yeah yeah I'm getting up for work anyway. But it's easier to get up to play with kids for two hours than to get up to go sit in a stuffy room getting lectured at.

Jon does the same thing - there's the problem. I think "hm...Jon and Kai might be fun" and they're both on their backs all ready to go...but then there's no one to top. And that's ignoring there's no way to actually get them together because there isn't even a TENUOUS link between Gamma Ray or Helloween and Bon Jovi.

But Jon ass and Kai ass in the same place would be mmm. Perhaps too much bitable/pinchable/fuckable ass for the world to handle, though.

And I don't often...but I do have MSN installed on this computer, so as soon as I upgrade it I can pop on. heidizzle@gmail.com

Re: *goes blush*

Date: 2006-12-30 06:59 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hector-rashbaum.livejournal.com
hankette@gmail.com, I mean.

*evil grin*

Date: 2006-12-30 08:51 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] mayqueen517.livejournal.com
*giggles*

And that's ignoring there's no way to actually get them together because there isn't even a TENUOUS link between Gamma Ray or Helloween and Bon Jovi.

*giggles more*

You're gonna kill me.

First:

Leppard and Jovi know each other. Leppard and Maiden know each other. (they broke about the same time, etc)

In 1988 (I think), Maiden toured with Helloween, back when Kai was still in it, I believe.

Helloween and Maiden know each other.

AND if you could, you could ALWAYS go down the route of Tico going to visit Nicko and Jon deciding that he'll go because of and Kai being there because he wants to see Maiden.

Or is that too far fetched? *coughs*

Re: *evil grin*

Date: 2006-12-30 08:54 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hector-rashbaum.livejournal.com
I am going to hit you SO HARD.

Re: *evil grin*

Date: 2006-12-30 09:04 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] mayqueen517.livejournal.com
*giggles*

It has the added benefit of more Tico/Nicko!

Re: *evil grin*

Date: 2006-12-31 02:29 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hector-rashbaum.livejournal.com
HIT YOU. SO HARD. YOU GO OW.

Date: 2006-12-30 08:55 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] mayqueen517.livejournal.com
Oh, and there's not a fic of yours that I DON'T like.

Every Night wasn't the first one I read...I think that was either Charades or Make It Interesting, and from those two, I knew I had to read the rest of your stuff. :-D

And Tangled will always hold a place in my heart, if only because that's what got us talking.

Date: 2006-12-30 09:17 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hector-rashbaum.livejournal.com
Aww, really? I'm stoned so I can handle that without blushing *grins* Thanks, babydoll, that means a lot to me.

And Every Night was the first fic of mine you reviewed. In fact, you were my first review ever.

Tangled is unspeakably special to me for just that reason.

Date: 2006-12-30 09:22 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] mayqueen517.livejournal.com
*grins*

And really? Hnh. Well, it's not like I have the best memory ever...*giggles*